Purity is a Dirty Word

Purity of Mind: Day 1 - In Tune with God's Purpose

Psalm 36: 5-6 (The Message)
God's love is meteoric, his loyalty astronomic,
His purpose titanic, his verdicts oceanic.  
Yet in his largeness nothing gets lots;
Not a man, not a mouse slips through the cracks.

Purity is an interesting thing, its something that I have always thought of in terms of 'actions' and I am sure I am not the only one.  When I think of being pure, the first thing that comes to mind is a little thing called sex and how you don't do it till you say i do.  But even before I started reading this book I have been learning more and more about purity and what it actually is.  

Purity is fully tied in with Holiness, another term that scares me a little, because even though I know it is a good thing it means fully letting go of me and my flesh and letting God do what he wants.  Sometimes I think I am super short sighted coz I would rather be comfy and only stretched as far as I want, then to give in and 'live life to the full'.  Anyway in the book it offers a definition of purity in terms of music...it suggest that purity is 'free from harshness or roughness and being in tune'...that is in tune with God's purpose for my life.  

Recently I have finished uni and started full time work in the area of my training, and while I like my job, despite the fact that it has caused some pretty big changes in my life.  The thing is though I am not super passionate about it, I like dietetics and I find it interesting, but it doesn't make me tick like I think that it should.  A couple of Sunday's ago I was challenged by another good friend to stop looking at my plans for my life and start looking at God's plans for my life and this really hit home.  I am the kind of person that likes to be in control, holding the reigns and I am also a planner.  I have a big long list of things that I want to happen in my life and while these things are all good, I have started to wonder if they are great.  Are they the 'immeasurably more' that I want?  The answer is probably not, sure maybe some of them are in God's plan too, but if I am picking and choosing, its not going to be the best it can be.  

The thing is though, I know all this information, but I need to act on it and thats where it gets hard.  I know that this is were faith and trust come in, but for a control freak like me how do I just let go?  I know that over my whole life and especially in the last couple of years God has been maturing me, but I don't feel ready.  Sometimes I wonder if I will ever feel ready, or if this is something that I just have to do?  And if I just have to do it...where do I start?  Perhaps as I commit to this devotions thing, I will get the courage...and perhaps a push? Who knows...