Courage

Purity of Mind: Day 5 - A New Season

Isaiah 43:18-19
Forget about what's happened; don't keep going over old history.  Be alert, be present.  I'm about to do something brand new.  It's bursting out!  Don't you see it? There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands.

Sometimes I get really caught up on the things I have experienced with God in the past, so much so that is stops me from seeking the next bit.  I guess I have been lucky...maybe blessed is a better word...enough to have been born and raised in a Christian household where the things of God were constantly around me.  I don't think that I have actually known what it is not to have God in my life.  Through this I have seen and experienced some pretty remarkable things, including massive supernatural things like healing, being slain in the spirit, people speaking in tounges and amazing transformations in people lives.  

Anyway, I think that as I have gotten older I have seen less and less of these things well everything except the last one.  As a now adult (although I still find it hard to believe) I experience God in my life in a very different way.  However, I guess because its not as in your face as the ways of the past sometimes I think it is less significant, which isn't the case at all...as school would always say, 'it's not good, it's not bad, it's just different'.  The thing is because I keep expecting that I will experience God like I used to, I block him from doing something new.  But really thats all that I want, an encounter, however, I think that one of the reasons I haven't had this yet is that I am not listening all that well, because I know that my relationship with him is past the one of warm fuzzies to get me by, now the commitments are super long term, and normally cause me to go out of my comfort zone.  I know that I want something new, but I know that I also need the courage to listen and obey... whatever happens.  

So here I am God, asking for something new, a fresh dream, a new drive, but I also need to you fill me with you strength and give me courage...